Sunday, January 4, 2009

liers!

sorry for not updating my blog for such a long time due to my lazyness..haiz..paiseh ohhh..

sumtime I've been thinking is blog reli a good way to express own feeling??

it's depend on individual ba..

but for me, i dun have the bravery to write it here..

i scare i will hurt ppl feeling if i said anythin wrong here..

And i'm quite a self-protective person...

i always keep everything to myself...

the problems, the stress, the madness, the sadness...

i wont show it to the others...not even to my family...

but i'm glad that i hv ji mui who care bout each other...

we can always share the problem and the worries...

now, they are getting into relationship one after another...

so happy for u gals...(but dun 4get me wen gt bf alr worrr >.<)

actually i'm quite shock everytime wen we gather..and gt the "breaking new" of new coupleXD

y am i so "sentimental" today?? ):

actually i'm not happy for tis few days...

when i noe i gt cheated by my closest persons ...

they broke their promise...and lie to me...

i'm so sad..so angry..

but i cant show it to them..

as it will only bring me to a more serious condition if i reli do so...

i have to keep it to myself and act nothing happen...(but do i reli do it??)

i'm so reluctant to talk to them...

i din laugh or even smile truly from my heart for these few days...

i have to force myself to answer what they ask even i nt willing to...

it may b a very small matter for u...

but for me, its a promise...

u promise me long time ago...

i trusted u will honour ur word...

so i wait and wait and wait...

but now, i doubt it...

i wont ever forget hw u answer to the uncle that day...

do you noe hw i feel when hear it?!

do you noe hw sad am i??!

i always respect u..but hv u ever respect me??when u answer him lyk tat in front of me?!

after that, u promise... u wil get it soon...

now it became a lie...a stupid lie...

u never thought of my feeling...

all u thk is jz an unneceesary thing for me...

as long as all of u is comfort enough...

so u dun nid to border it!!!

and i cried everytime in the bathroom...

for this stupid lie!



u lie to me !! u lie to me!!

u dun even plan to tell me if i dun ask u!!

u tell me to wait again...

but when reach that time..

will u still remember what u has said??

or u will act like now..
pretend that u never said anythin and expect me to forget bout it?

liers!!!